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Monday, June 09, 2003
  

Gutom At Usapang Matino

Putangina! Iba pala talaga halo ng gutom at ng isang usapang matino. Ngayong gabi, eh marami akong natutunan. Susubukan ko nalang pagkonektahin yung mga sasabihin ko, medyo kasi minsan eh lag na ang utak pag ganitong oras ng gabi.. este.. umaga. Ay oo nga pala. Hindi lahat ng blog entries eh na sa wikang Ingles. :)

Ngayong gabi eh sinubukan kong mag-isa at magmukmok sa aking pinakamamahal na kwarto. Dito kasi sa lungga ko eh tuwang tuwa ako dahil walang nakakaistorbo sa akin. Kaso nandoon pa rin ang katotohanan, na minsan talaga eh hindi ako nakakatagal na walang kausap.. so.. dinial ko ang namber ng isang matalik kong kaibigan.

Ayon, nagusap kami nang matagal. Ang sarap nga ng kwentuhan namin eh. Minsan pinagtatawanan namin yung mga nakaraan. Pero nagusap din kami nang seryosohan. Yung mga "pram di hart" daw ba. Ayun, ganun ka seryos. Hay. Pinagusapan namin kung bakit yung mga ibang tao eh parang ang baba ng tingin sa yo pag yung topic ng mga pinagsususulat mo eh pag-ibig. Eh paki ba nila anak ng ulupong naman oh! Eh sa kung ayon ang nasa katikatihang isulat ng mga daliri namin eh bakit ba! Napagusapan din naman namin, yung mga napagdaanan na namin. Yung mga alaalang iyon, hindi namin makakalimutan. Hindi ko makakalimutan. Kahit ba lumisan na ako papunta sa ibang bansa, eh isasaisip ko pa rin lahat ng mga nangyari sa amin. Changinang yan. Nakakamiss.

Nagusap kami nang matagal-tagal. Matagal-tagal nga na nakalimutan ko nang kumain ng hapunan. Nagdidiet na kasi ako, para sa debut ko eh hokay sa seksi sa holrayt na ako. O diba. Walang kokontra. So ayon. Kaso, natapos kami mga 12:30 na ng umaga. Grabe naman, kumukulo na yung tiyan ko.

Tinapos na namin ang usapan. Sabi ko, "Bitch, kakain muna kong donut. Di pa kasi ako kumakain eh. Matulog ka na, usap ulit tayo. Alabshu!" Sabi naman niya sa kin, "O sige bitch, usap ulit tayo bukas. Mahaba pa ang panahon. Isang yosi muna tapos tulog na." Ayos diba. Handang handa na kong kumain.

Naglalaway na ko sa ideyang nasa utak ko -- na makakain ko na yung frosted chocolate donut ko na kasama dun sa half a dozen na donuts na binili ko sa Ever nung isang araw. Lasap na lasap ko na talaga. Siguro ang nasabi ko nalang nung pagtingin ko sa kusina eh "Shet nasan na yung mga donut!?" Grabe, ngayon ko lang natutunan. Iba na talaga pag may bago kayong katulong. Grabe pati pagkain mo nakupppp napapakyaw! Hanep sa olrayt eh, talbog ako. Wala ng natira sa half a dozen donuts ko. Tangna! Half a dozen na nga eh wala pang ilang araw! Juskopoinay.

Para mawala ang pagkalungkot ko at di ko malalasap ang aking mga donut, eh naghanap ako ng kapalit. Sakto! May nakita akong kahon ng Pop Tarts na binili ko sa Tate. Para ngang tinatawag na niya ako, kainin ko na daw, siya daw ang aking tagapagligtas. Ayan, sobrang saya ko na........... hanggat pagkagat ko eh nakita ko nalang, na ang dami palang langgam!! Grabe, sabay luwa ako! Literal, pagbaba ko ng plastik eh nagsilabasan ang langgam! Ang saya nga naman. Ang swit ko daw, yes, napagtripan pa nila ako.

Bumaba ako ulit para iluwa yung nasa bibig kong Pop Tart na may mga langgam. Naghugas ako at nagmumug. Pagkatapos, tingin ako sa kaserola. Okay na sana eh. May ulam. Madaling initin, may kanin pang kasama. Pero anak ng tipaklong na naman. Sinigang. Okay na sana. Masarap. .... Pero ba naman kung apat na araw ng sinigang eh diba nakakasuya?! Grabe.

So in short ladies and gentlemen, nauwi ako sa pagkain ng mangga. Hindi ko maintindihan, kung maasim ba ito oh malamig lang kaya di ko malasahan. Siguro nga malamig lang noon at nangilo pa yung ngipin ko. Hokay na naman sa holrayt.

At least nasatisfy yung gutom ko. Okay eh noh, sa mangga. Okay din, winner, ala una ng umaga eh napamangga ako. Ayos lang, matino naman yung usapan namin ng matalik kong kaibigan eh. Kahit pala may langgam ka na sa bibig, di pala yun kukumpara sa isang matinong usapan. At maliit lang yung mga langgam, hindi mo naman talaga malasahan. Go gudnayt ebribadi. Magsisipilyo pa kong lubusan.

Mama Kath. Salamat. Mahal na mahal kita. Napasubo akong langgam, pero ayos lang. :)



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Through difficulties
to the stars...
      These are the slips of the pen, tongue and memory of an abashed, slaphappy crackpot. Word for word and letter for letter, by stronger reasons, I breathe and hope and raise my glass to Love, and a better tomorrow.

So invigorate me. Please.



I am nobody but me.

I guess having lost my entire sidebar will not work for me, but it's no reason either to start anew. =)

I am Jik. I believe in miracles, and I believe in hope. I am not prude nor old-fashioned even though I  believe that Love is very real and that it governs the world. I am not selfish even though I may be materialistic. I am not weak even though I sometimes crumble down to my knees. I am not poor even though  I have very little in my bank account. I try to embody what courage is all about and I try to do everything in spontaneity. I invest a whole lot of passion in anything I do, and I am and always will be  a dreamer. I admire people who uphold their beliefs in life, as I try to do so myself. I always strive  for the perfection of character, and make myself into the person I want to become. I seek for the greater  scheme of things, the tapestry of how everything falls into an exquisite, sublime plan. And my greatest  fortune is having found the secret of my life. This I intend to share with all of you someday.

Makulit. Malikot. Mababaw. I'm thumbelina, sweetie, choknat, bitch,  bastard, bruhilda, gaga, bubwit, baby, hoebag, dumbass, jiffy, jikinini, jikydoodles, gicgic, jikulit, jikywiky, jikaru,  jikers, jikee, jikijik, jikjik, jik, jixie, jikita, jikita banana, jikitita, jikaboo, or what have you. I'm the Jik you know and ever will know.

            
My personal prayers
The Serenity Prayer

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will; That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next. Amen.
--Reinhold Niebuhr

The Prayer

I pray you'll be our eyes
And watch us where we go
And help us to be wise
In times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer
As we go our way
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your Grace
To a place where we'll be safe
La luce che tu dai
(I pray we'll find your light)
Nel cuore restera
(And hold it in our hearts)
A ricordarci che
(When stars go out each night)
L'eterna stella sei
Nella mia preghiera
(Let this be our prayer)
Quanta fede c'e
(When shadows fill our day)
Lead us to a place
Guide us with your grace
  Give us faith so we'll be safe.
Sogniamo un mondo senza piu violenza
Un mondo di giustizia e di speranza
Ognuno dia la mano al suo vicino
Simbolo di pace e di fraternita
La forza che ci dai
(We ask that life be kind)
E'il desiderio che
(And watch us from above)
Ognuno trovi amore
(We hope each soul will find)
Intorno e dentro a se
(Another soul to love)
Let this be our prayer
Let this be our prayer
Just like every child
Just like every child
Needs to find a place,
Guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
E la fede che
Hai acceso in noi
Sento che ci salvera

         
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My Defining Moment:
Cassiel Matthias De Leon


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Reflections
Music

Heart Door
Paula Cole with Dolly Parton


There is a diamond inside of me that lights up the sky of my soul/ Where fell the diamond when I believed that all of the hurt was my fault/ I'm opening the heart door, letting in the light/ Opening the heart door and giving life to me that died/ You ended up so with that person who comes home too late from the bar/ I ended up so when my courage could finally walk on its own/ When I finally opened the door/ I'm opening the heart door, letting in the light/ Opening the heart door and giving life to me that died/ You ended up so with that person who comes home too late from the bar/ I ended up so when my courage could finally walk on its own/ When I finally opened the heart door

With or Without You
U2


See the stone set in your eyes/ See the thorn twist in your side/ I wait for you/ Sleight of hand and twist of fate/ On a bed of nails she makes me wait/ And I wait without you/ With or without you/ With or without you/ Through the storm we reach the shore/ You give it all but I want more/ And I'm waiting for you/ With or without you/ With or without you/ I can't live/ With or without you/ And you give yourself away/ And you give yourself away/ And you give/ And you give/ And you give yourself away/ My hands are tied/ My body bruised, she's got me with/ Nothing to win and/ Nothing left to lose/ And you give yourself away/ And you give yourself away/ And you give/ And you give/ And you give yourself away/ With or without you/ With or without you/ I can't live/ With or without you/ With or without you/ With or without you/ I can't live/ With or without you/ With or without you

Off The Hook
Barenaked Ladies


All around the room your things are placed/ And next to you he fills the space/ And so it seems your saving grace is only saving face/ The pictures of the two of you on holiday, on honeymoon/ You thought that he was wanting you,/ But he was only wanting you to/ Let him off the hook/ He was your imaginary friend,/ You were partners til the end/ Then something bends, and then it breaks, your worst mistake/ Accepting enemies on bended knees; a litany of tragedies,/ You're vexed, it seems you're hexed and after sex he expects/ You'll let him off the hook til/ Something that you heard while you were sleeping left you/ Shaken while he stirred. When you awaken you will/ Make him eat his words right off the hook/ Hook and line, every time/ The credit card receipts, the dirty sheets/ The souvenirs of men who cheat/ It all makes sense - with each offense/ You wanted to believe him/ He could get away with murder one,/ And you would clean the smoking gun/ With every crime, you bought each line,/ But not this time, you'll make him/ Eat his words cause/ Something that you heard while you were sleeping left you/ Shaken while he stirred/ When you awaken you will/ Make him eat his, make him eat his/ Words while he's alone,/ Cause you won't be around and/ From now on the phone stays off the hook/ Hook and line, everytime/ Hook and line, everytime

Wherever You Are
Celeste Prince


Time has come, what's done is done/ It's time to move on/ To another place, another space,/ maybe circling some other sun/ Don't ask why, don't ask how/ I still can't explain/ To say goodbye, goodbye for now til I see you again/ In the sunlight that's where I'll be/ In the moon night close your eyes, you will see me/ In the sunrise in the twilight/ I'll be the morning and the evening star/ I will be there with you wherever you are/ Life is strange, such joy and pain/ The betrayal and the kiss/ It maybe meant to be, maybe destiny/ Leads us down a path like this/ Child is born, true love is sworn/ All the in-between/ Well you walk on, walk on until the path is gone/ Learning love is the only everything/ So it's goodnight, things go wrong/ but it's alright/ We're all just passin' through here/ At the speed of light/ In the sunlight that's where I'll be/ In the moon night close your eyes, you will see me/ In the sunrise in the twilight/ I'll be the morning and the evening star/ I will be there with you wherever you are

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