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Per Ardua Ad AstraI am one of the many few who crumble at defeat and I end up kicking myself time and time again to urge myself to get up. I am also one of the many who don't want to settle down, with any person, situation or lifestyle. I like constant flux and I like the turns and twists that life lets me experience. However, there are brief moments when I like just floating or drifting. For me, these are the times in between old, beautiful memories and new, uglier situations. I like being in this state because it makes me as lucid as possible. And here, I am free.
Today is one of those days. I did pretty much nothing the whole day, just daydreaming about past memories and thinking about some harder and more complicated ones tomorrow. I told myself as I was rocking my body to sleep that maybe some memories are what they are, so we can look upon them and smile at the thought that they actually happened. Maybe all memories are that way. They are what they are to make our lives as meaningful as possible. If they were all beautiful, we wouldn't know what painful is. If they were all painful, we'd be hell living a very depressed life. However, they are a mix of the good and the bad, the beautiful and the painful, so we may look back on them and plan for the future on how to achieve more beautiful ones and discard painful ones. If we do this, then maybe the bite of the painful ones would sting and hurt us less. And maybe, there'd be a promise of a better tomorrow.
I guess having lost my entire sidebar will not work for me, but it's no reason either to start anew. =)
I am Jik. I believe in miracles, and I believe in hope. I am not prude nor old-fashioned even though I believe that Love is very real and that it governs the world. I am not selfish even though I may be materialistic. I am not weak even though I sometimes crumble down to my knees. I am not poor even though I have very little in my bank account. I try to embody what courage is all about and I try to do everything in spontaneity. I invest a whole lot of passion in anything I do, and I am and always will be a dreamer. I admire people who uphold their beliefs in life, as I try to do so myself. I always strive for the perfection of character, and make myself into the person I want to become. I seek for the greater scheme of things, the tapestry of how everything falls into an exquisite, sublime plan. And my greatest fortune is having found the secret of my life. This I intend to share with all of you someday.
Makulit. Malikot. Mababaw. I'm thumbelina, sweetie, choknat, bitch, bastard, bruhilda, gaga, bubwit, baby, hoebag, dumbass, jiffy, jikinini, jikydoodles, gicgic, jikulit, jikywiky, jikaru, jikers, jikee, jikijik, jikjik, jik, jixie, jikita, jikita banana, jikitita, jikaboo, or what have you. I'm the Jik you know and ever will know.