My renewed mumbo jumbo
Sometimes I'd be too absorbed in all the things that are going wrong in my life that I tend to forget the other simple things that make me realize that I have a good life, and hell of a lot to be thankful for.
Maybe it does take a short conversation from a friend I haven't talked to in months to make me see that I have good and loyal friends, who may be miles away from me, who may be in different countries and different nooks and crannies in the world. However, I know that wherever they may be, the times we've shared together were true and incomparable. Any other acquaintance after that remained just that -- an acquaintance. They all seemed second-rate except for a few, but they were nowhere close to everything I've experienced when I was in the Philippines.
People have asked me why I got linked to so many people in the past. And people who know me well know what I'm talking about, of course. Certain people have viewed me as defiant, to have done things they believe I shouldn't have, or to have experienced things I shouldn't have exposed myself to. Moreover, I know I've hurt a lot of people because of all the things in the past, but I've never really been able to express my reasons for fully backing up everything I've gone through. You, and you know who you are, look at me like I'm dirty, and I know we've talked about not reliving the past in any way, but let me just make my argument in a way that I hope you would appreciate whenever you're comfortable. Right now, a few years after all that has happened, I'm still thankful for all the things I was able to experience, may they be things that complemented the Jik that everybody knows, or the other side of Jik that people wouldn't expect from my everyday behavior. I view everything and everybody I come across as opportunities to learn something new, and each time I do, whether I'm scarred or not, I'm still very grateful. So just looking back and talking again to my friend made me realize that over the span of five years, I've grown tremendously and am very lucky that I met the people I know and I've undergone the things that I did. So, whew, just to get it off my chest, a very big part of me does not regret the things, pleasant or not, that have happened to me, because they all contributed to making the person that I am. And guess what, I turned out alright. Wiser, even, than I expected. =)
So this is my renewed mumbo jumbo: that I will try to talk and write about the more positive things in life, the simple things that people tend to overlook, which are the same things that cause us to have sporadic moments where we see ourselves smiling for no reason at all. Thanks for that short but savvy conversation. You made me miss you more. Plus, you got me stuck on when and why I drew Mike Wazowski on the floor... so I still hate you. Hehe. =)
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